working at home again

I have been exiled to my home by new boss. He wants me to close some of the cases that have my name on them because I am a manager, not a case worker, and thinks people will bother me too much if I stay in the office. He also gave me the impression that I am somehow hanging on to them for unexplained reasons. It doesn't matter that I used to rant about wanting them transferred as I can't do both jobs, now he's in charge and I am bad girl who can't let go. I didn't even want to work at home today. I shall show him, I shall do very little work. Haha.

Actually, that's quite unfair as new boss is also very good boss. Ms Ginger Cake and I selected him and forced him to apply, as neither of us wanted the job. He's already made a real difference, and I have been very impressed by his enthusiasm for the work. His ideas fit so neatly with ours that there is a real sense of being able to work well together to strengthen and develope the service to children and their families. He's also unafraid to challenge others agencies about their lack of involvement and support. I see good times ahead.

I think that the real problem is that we were left for so long in a dire situation, without the power to do anything about it. Now that things are looking up, I have the space to be angry about this. I find myself ever so slightly reluctant to let go of my sense of being 'up against it all'. I have told new boss that I have sacrificed quite enough personally and professionally over the last two years, and now I want my development back on track. To his credit, he agreed. He also had to look after his new baby for an hour at work yesterday, so I was able to drool over it. Now I normally cannot stand babies unless they are family members, but his is lovely. Smiley, happy, very responsive, and it smells good.

I have now convinced myself that I am playing silly games. I have been given an opportunity to resolve some of the issues that made me unhappy, and I should embrace it. New boss has also let me and Ms Ginger Cake go on some very good training at the expense of his time, and I should also show willing.

Now that I've resolved my ambivalence through blogging I shall return to work. I might even put in a little extra.